I thnank the Lord for today. it has been an interesting night, well at least for me. I know and I believe that there are no accidents in life and God has planned the best for me. My night has two parts. (i'll write it metaphorically though-- that's cause' i dont want anyone to know this yet). I was praying to God for too long, asking Him for something that is way beyond my reach... I asked him something that I want and I prayed that what I want is also what He wants for me.....Anyway, Im sounding redundant already but that's the simplest way to explain it without giving a hint to the readers... (i'm sorry but it's too personal) .... anyway, sooo i was asking it for 5 months already, i guess... and i ve been praying hard for that. God had talked to me through different ways and I feel like He's directing me straight to it... but i feel that it's not yet time for Him to give it to me.... just a while ago, this thing im asking has been in front of me 3 times... THERE ARE NO ACCIDENTS.. Now what's playing on my mind is, what is God telling me? Is it "Anak, let it go.. stop looking at it forever" or "Anak, that's what you want, i'll give it...just wait.... just dont make any move right now" ..................... I DONT KNOW. God please grant me wisdom riight now... It confused me more when there's this other thing (which i didn't ask) that's fast coming along me. waaaa...... i can't understand it riight now... what i know is, it's not yet my time... i just pray God would grant me more wisdom to understand everything..... keep praying!